oh the pressure to be entertaining and witty is getting to me already….so unlike writing in my journal where i write for my eyes only. i must balance my intelligent opinions and ideas with my neurotic, anxiety-driven angst…i used to be one of those “i’m right and you are wrong” people, with no desire to hear the points of the other side; however, in my maturing growth, (uh, what i meant was old age), i have begun to change my opinions on issues and beliefs i’ve held since …forever. Like the death penalty, prison, Christianity, everything, really. Remember when you first moved out, away from your parents? I can remember grocery shopping, and buying the same brands and foods that my mom bought. And then, suddenly, about a year later, I realized “I don’t like Tide – why the HELL do i keep buying Tide? I have 50 choices other than Tide! ” I know that seems crazy, but I think opinions can sometimes be the same way.. how many people vote the way their parents always did? or buy Fords because that’s what their parents did? My parents (father especially) were VERY overbearing, and I think the fear of going against their wishes stayed with me WELL into my 30’s -
but now i’m done with that. FREEDOM!!!!!!!!!!!
you know, the death penalty isn’t always the best thing. maybe that person was innocent? maybe that person could use just a little more time to ask for forgiveness, and know Jesus, and be saved, and do something GOOD in prison, with the rest of their life? don’t get me wrong, i’m all for life with no parole, but sometimes, people just do the wrong thing, because of drugs, bad influences, bad relationships, heated emotions, desperation, etc. Those Amish families, who lost their daughters, BEGGED the judge to save the killers life, saying that they forgave him. Could I do that? I pray, dear God, give me a heart that could do that.
just the beginning of my life-changing transformation of my belief systems…..
